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When Leaders Need To Be Led by Elizabeth Glass Turner

It took a while to realize what I was missing.

It does sometimes.

It took sitting in a pew to allow the revelation to dawn on me.

Everyone needs to be led sometimes: especially leaders.

I loved pronouncing the opening line of the call to worship; I loved welcoming the faithful and the not-so-faithful to the communion table; I loved uttering “our Father” and hearing voices join mine. Pastoring my first church, and especially engaging with the flock in communal worship, was a joy.

After a couple of years in ministerial service, I found another distinct joy: sitting in a pew on a rare Sunday away, hearing someone else preach, and being led in worship by someone else.

Most “healthy clergy” initiatives focus on things like physical health (which is good) or individual spiritual development (also good) or even clergy fellowship group participation (another good).

But what about the value of sitting in a pew, receiving communal worship? We all need to be led, to be part of a group of listeners even for an hour. Recently, I read an interesting question posed by a well-known leader: “pastors, do you have a safe house?” The point in question related to time away in a physical space with people with whom you are free to be vulnerable.

Let’s put a twist on it: pastors, do you have a sanctuary? Not the worship space of the church where you serve. Do you have a sanctuary? A place where you can claim safety, peace, anonymity, protection and worship? Maybe as a pastor what you most need is to sneak away to an Episcopalian midweek Eucharist service. Surely “sanctuary” is something clergy members need more often than their yearly vacation. One Protestant pastor I know still cites time he spent at a Catholic monastery as profoundly formative in his vocational journey.

I found sanctuary in Doxa Soma – Christian practice of meditation, prayer, stretching and strengthening through which I can be led (through the marvels of the internet) via live video stream. To have Psalms read to me (which somehow feels so different than opening my own Bible to read a Psalm myself), to be led in prayer and meditation, to be guided through the movements – what blessed relief. I can turn off the responsibility switch in my brain and simply follow and receive. And what an important role to inhabit for a while: that of learner, of follower, of recipient.

North American leaders – in business as in ministry – like to be motivated or inspired or challenged. We want keynote speakers that will give us a half-time speech that will send us to the end zone. But all of those responses still allow – or curse – leaders to feel in control.

The image of Christ here is compelling: fully God, fully human, allowing himself to be baptized – the Divine, being dunked. Over and over again, we hear from the Gospel writers that Jesus went off to a quiet place to pray. If Jesus needed sanctuary, how much more do I?

Lord, we are so much like Simon Peter sometimes – eager, enthusiastic, ready to march ahead or leap into action. And just as he learned, teach us also the value of the truth that even leaders – especially leaders – need to be led…

Why I Love Being Wesleyan by Elizabeth Glass Turner

When I first arrived at seminary, I was astonished at the number of Wesleyans I met. Wesleyans everywhere! Having grown up in the small but active Wesleyan denomination, I was gratified to see it represented so fully.

Then, about a week into the semester, I began to realize something – all the Wesleyans I was meeting were Wesleyan, not Wesleyan. They were Wesleyan in their theology (as opposed to Catholic or Calvinist), not Wesleyan in their denominational affiliation. A good many of them were denominationally United Methodist.

I was a little dismayed – so the Wesleyan church had perhaps fewer student representatives than I first thought – but I was also relieved in a vague, undefined sense: there was a much bigger Wesleyan community out there than I had realized; full, robust Wesleyan theology was flourishing in a variety of soils.

I’m proud that I grew up in the Wesleyan church, a denomination that laid the groundwork of my fledgling faith as a child. I’m also proud to continue as a member of the Wesleyan movement through my service in the United Methodist Church, a denomination with a rich heritage that I hope will help steer it through its current identity crisis.

So why do I love being Wesleyan, in its fullest sense?

I love being Wesleyan because I wholeheartedly believe that theology matters, and that Wesleyan theology is good theology. Despite being a child of the age of ecumenism – and despite having a strong ecumenical bent – I am deliberately, thoughtfully Wesleyan. Church, we have some amazing resources as participants in the Wesleyan movement. For Wesleyans, the Bible matters, becoming more and more like Jesus Christ matters, the freedom to exercise the will matters, the means of grace matter, and people matter, from the least and the last to the prominent and powerful: it is full-orbed, Spirit-driven engagement with the Word of God and the world, soup and Scripture, Ebola medication and intercessory prayer.

I love being Wesleyan because there was something about John Wesley that constantly put things in perspective: he was someone who knew how to elicit a response. Do you want to grow in your spiritual life? Excellent – he would plug you into a well-organized community – with community expectations. There was a constant “choose this day who you will serve” hanging in the background; early Methodists were people who responded to the call to go deep or go home. There weren’t gimmicks, or appeals marketed to egos, only a call to be genuinely, really committed to this lifestyle. That confrontational call to action in all its pared down, extremely difficult simplicity appeals to my Scottish side (after all, you couldn’t be halfheartedly alongside William Wallace!).

And I love being Wesleyan because Wesleyans are creative people: amid the things that stay the same, all times everywhere, we Wesleyans have elbowroom to ask, “how might the Gospel of Jesus Christ look in this setting? How can we effectively serve the marginalized and learn from them? How do the arts communicate grace?” and on, and on. Within the liturgical calendar, within the rhythms of celebrating communion and reading through the Word of God, within these timeless frameworks is an extraordinarily fertile ground for creative appropriations of our Wesleyan heritage.

So here’s to being Wesleyan – a movement that has stretched across the centuries to you, here, now – and that will, by the grace of God, continue to spill over into the centuries ahead.

The Vast Sufferer by Elizabeth Glass Turner

To die, to sleep—
no more—and by a sleep to say we end
the heartache and the thousand natural shocks
that flesh is heir to—’tis a consummation
devoutly to be wished! To die, to sleep.
To sleep, perchance to dream—ay, there’s the rub,
for in that sleep of death what dreams may come
when we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
must give us pause. There’s the respect
that makes calamity of so long life.

– Hamlet, Act 3 Scene 1

How can you end suffering? The kind of suffering that Shakespeare called “the heartache and the thousand natural shocks that flesh is heir to”? Perhaps no one in recent times better captures Hamlet’s suffering than actor David Tennant who, alongside Sir Patrick Stewart, crushed new pain out of a stiffly familiar role.

Shakespeare treats us to a glimpse of Hamlet’s inner musings: he suffers tremendously from the actions of others; and this suffering brings an existential weariness that lures him to consider how blissful an eternal sleep could be. Unless…

Unless death could not offer peaceful sleep; unless an afterlife existed in which untold new suffering might have to be endured for one who took it upon himself to end his own suffering. There it was: humans endure deep suffering when the thought of an unknown afterlife gives them pause. And so the question could not simply remain “to be or not to be” – no such luck for Hamlet. Rather, “to be, or to be I know not what.” Tragedy at its sharpest: there is no sure and certain way out.

Do you suffer? Not the set of first-world problems so many face – the caterer for an event proving to be a disaster, or a high-tech labor-saving appliance failing to work properly. No, do you suffer? Suffering can exist in upper-middle class subdivisions as easily as it can in the slums of Calcutta, as Mother Teresa so aptly pointed out: there are different kinds of poverty, and wealthy people may yet experience a poverty of love. So Hamlet discovered: a young man of privilege and wealth who grieves both the loss of a father and the instability of a mother who remarries too quickly – and who remarries her dead husband’s brother. Not only does Hamlet wrestle with these circumstances: it is revealed that his father did not die a natural death. And he knows who killed him…

What a modern sounding story: the self-centeredness of elders destroying the hope, stability and dreams of the young. Hamlet’s world crashes down; the formerly high-spirited young man sinks into a deep depression that even his girlfriend can’t rescue him from.

Do you suffer? Trendy psychobabble can cover suffering in a multitude of ways, as George Carlin pointed out when he criticized the use of the phrase “post-traumatic stress disorder,” preferring the vivid old-fashioned word “shellshock” – even running it through your mouth creates a noise of hissing crash. The Western world prefers a sanitized suffering: suffering that is embalmed, placed under flattering lights and smeared with lipstick. Sanitized suffering that is covered with fake green plastic grass at a graveside, that waits for the crowd of mourners to depart before lowering the casket into the ground.

Hamlet refused to let his suffering to be sanitized, because he refused to let the evil that caused it to be sanitized.

Do you attempt to window-dress evil? To window-dress your own suffering?

If you don’t face your own suffering, how will you ever find rest? Real, true rest for the mind and spirit?

To face your own suffering is to come uncomfortably close to Christ in Gethsemene: does the idea of Christ, the suffering servant, comfort or trouble you? The fully divine, fully human being sweating drops of blood from anguish…

Rest will not come from appealing to “God”: “God,” that one mysterious being who motivates us when we need a pick-me-up through a smiling televangelist. But some rest may come from Father, from Son and from Holy Spirit.

Rest may come from the first person of the Trinity, the one that parents, that proclaims “let there be…”, the one from whom the Word proceeds. We may find comfort in seeking protection and safety from the birther of the universe, the one who is on the lookout for the return of the prodigal child.

Rest may come from the second person of the Trinity, the Word Made Flesh, the suffering servant. We may find refuge by placing ourselves alongside the weeping Jesus, before Lazarus’ tomb is opened, or in a moonlit garden where Jesus wrestles alone in tortuous prayer, or in the stations of the cross, where a suffering servant stumbles towards execution.

Rest may come from the third person of the Trinity, the fathomless Holy Spirit who moves and darts this way and that beyond our comprehension. We may find rest as we cease our efforts and allow the Holy Spirit to intercede for us with groans that cannot be uttered, or as we simply relax in the company of the Comforter, the Spirit of adoption.

For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us…

What dreams may come? Dreams may come that give us pause; there is much in the Book of Revelation to give anyone pause. But we may also dream of glory: a glory that revels in justice, that infuses new life, that reanimates dead hopes.

Come to me, all that are weary and heavy-laden –

and I will give you rest…

and end the heartache and the thousand natural shocks

that flesh is heir to…

Even so, come, Lord Jesus.

Imagining Glory by Elizabeth Glass Turner

“Now we see dimly; then, face to face.”

Not, perhaps, the most utilized portion of I Corinthians 13 at the ubiquitous summer wedding – but oddly, one of my favorite parts of the familiar chapter. It seems to distill the essence of faith: trust that we will eventually see “face to face” what we now discern only dimly, in fragments and sketches.

“Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.”

Do we really believe we can know in part now? Postmodern instincts have eroded much of the basic confidence necessary to make simple statements of what we know; not what we believe, but what we know. If we can know, not fully, but truly – then we have that glimpse of the reflection.

What will we see face to face? The mysteries of the atom? Perhaps. A headcount of mysterious sea creatures inhabiting Loch Ness? (Fingers crossed.) Or the knee-bending, earth-shattering reality of Glorious Love? Of Triune Love, in all its glory? We get tantalizing hints of holy glory, sneak peeks of thunderous love and galaxy-spinning Triune chuckles. The book of Revelation teases us with vibrant portraits of the cacophonous zoo that is heaven – or is it Eden? No, and yet – paradise.

Glory is a concept a bit neglected by 21st century Americans – nonbelievers and faith-followers alike. We’ve been Goodyear-blimped and hyped and wowed and spectacled. Conversely, we’ve been flooded by dystopian literature that has all the arresting charm of London’s post-war architecture. We’ve dissected ourselves in the flickering light of the basement morgue and labeled the result “monster” (vampire, anyone?). We may be impressed or depressed but rarely awed.

And that’s where love comes in. Love, the gateway to awe. Awe – the suspicion of glory. Holy love – beating from the heart of the Trinity, sacrificing itself and leaving awe in its wake, awe opening our minds to the possibility of unforeseen glory.

Imagining glory keeps us human. To glimpse glory is to receive grace, the kind that results in plain, sunburned lips uttering “truly this was the Son of God!” To glimpse glory is to receive grace, the kind that cauterizes and compels:

“In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord, high and exalted, seated on a throne; and the train of his robe filled the temple. Above him were seraphim, each with six wings: With two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with two they were flying. And they were calling to one another: “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord Almighty; the whole earth is full of his glory.” At the sound of their voices the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke. “Woe to me!” I cried. “I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the Lord Almighty.” Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. With it he touched my mouth and said, “See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for.” Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me!”

We need to discipline ourselves to notice glimpses of glory; these close encounters are a means of grace.

Hospital Field Trips And Spiritual Training: Why Kids Should Learn To Make Hospital Visits by Elizabeth Glass Turner

As a grown-up, I traveled to a hospital once to visit a friend who’d had surgery. A mutual friend accompanied me. I watched his anxiety with amusement. He was anxious about how to find the elevators, anxious about reading the hospital map, anxious about the visit itself. I discovered that this otherwise rational, intelligent adult was uneasy and uncomfortable in hospitals. Meanwhile, I felt relaxed and confident.

It took a while to understand why. Finally, I blurted to him, “but I’ve been doing this since I was a kid!”

And it was true.

My regularly ill grandparents had been hospitalized locally from time to time and my Mom would take me to see them for brief visits.

Later, when she entered pastoral ministry, she occasionally took me with her on hospital visits. I wasn’t completely conscious at the time of all that I was learning.

And in the past year, my young son has put on his beloved fedora and accompanied me to the hospital – twice. Once when he was three, once when he was four.

I can hear the gasps. “You’re a pastor and you took a three year old on a hospital visit? You’re brave!” Or even, “but that’s unprofessional!” Or “I’d never have the nerve to take my kids on hospital calls, what if they act up?”

So here’s why I think it’s valuable to take kids with you to hospitals, and a few tips on how to have a good visit.

When you take a child to visit someone who’s ill, it teaches them to think of people other than themselves. It inherently widens their perspective and begins to instill compassion. You can frame it something like this: “So-and-so is sick. We want to let them know we love them and are sad that they don’t feel well. Let’s pray for them, and let’s thank God that today we feel good.” After I took my four year old son to visit an elderly church member, I wasn’t sure what he would take away from it. I found out a couple nights later. “Jack, who do you especially want to pray for tonight?” “For Bobbie who we saw in the hoppitall.” I was surprised but pleased. So we prayed for Bobbie.

When you take a child to visit someone who’s ill, it provides your kid with an opportunity to ask about sickness, bodies, and death. I know – not conversations any parent relishes having. But kids learn about these concepts either through deliberate chats or through osmosis – and when they learn through osmosis, you don’t know what misunderstandings or fears they may be developing. These don’t have to be conversations that breed neuroses (either for kid or parent!), but rather are opportunities to talk about faith, pain, hurt, loss, death, resurrection, and hope.

And, dear ones, if you have unsettled emotions about some of these topics, you’ll likely be avoiding them whether you realize it or not. I find one of the most helpful things to keep in mind is the simple phrase “age appropriate.” How can I answer the questions my kid has both honestly and age appropriately? If you feel ill-prepared, take advantage of some great resources out there; you and your kids can grow and process together.

When you take a child to visit someone who’s ill, it gives them a great foundation for future hospital visits of a more personal nature. If you take kids to a hospital, then when it’s their grandparent or even parent or themselves, they have some frame of reference for the experience. And it has introduced not only the sensory world of elevators and hospital beds and IV racks, but also some concepts that may help guide them through grief and pain. Which is easier, to talk about how sometimes bodies don’t work right before a beloved grandparent is in the hospital, or in the midst of a crisis when you as a parent are likely upset as well?

And when you take a child to visit someone who’s ill, you brighten the day of a lot of people. When my four year old accompanies me in his jaunty fedora and rain boots, I see a wave of grins spread over the faces of nurses and aides, of doctors and family members, and of the patients themselves. Hospitals are difficult environments. A large percentage of doctors are burned out. Nurses encounter difficult or rude or racist patients. Dealing with the loss of a patient can be hard on physicians. Those in the medical field work long hours away from their own kids. Children can be – they are not always, but they can be – a ray of sunshine on a difficult day.

So what are some steps you can take to guide the experience into “ray of sunshine” territory and not “hurricane of disaster”?

1.) Describe what kids will likely see and prepare them in advance for what will be said and done. The first time I took Jack – a three year old obsessed with vehicles and machinery – I emphasized that sensory world of motion. We will park in a parking garage with lots of cars. We’ll walk across a street with lots of traffic. We’ll go into a building and visit the potty. We’ll ride an elevator way up high and would take a break to look out the window at all the cars far below. We’ll spray foam hand sanitizer on our hands. We‘ll go to her room where she is lying in a bed that bends up with lots of buttons. Important buttons. Buttons we’re not allowed to touch. She might have a tube in her arm that puts medicine in her body. When we go in, he should say he hopes she feels better soon. Mama will ask her how she’s feeling and will listen while she talks. Mama will pray. We won’t stay long because she’s sick and doesn’t feel good. We’ll leave the room and spray more hand sanitizer on our hands. Then we get to ride the elevator again. And if Jack follows hospital rules, he will get a prize from the prize bucket when he gets home.

He got the prize.

2.) Choose visits that you know aren’t end-of-life or requiring special visit gear. There are many hospital visits you can make appropriately with kids. But use common sense: if a person is in the last days of his life, likely there will be a lot of family in the room; you may be able to take a 12 year old into that environment, but not a four year old. Often, surgeries don’t start when they are supposed to or end at the estimated time – not a good environment for attempting to care for the needs of a small child while connecting with family members. If someone has an infectious disease or compromised immune system for which you have to wear a mask or gown and gloves, you’re looking at a solo visit. In this context, spiritual care for the patient is primary and the gravity of the situation will dictate the appropriate availability of the spiritual caregiver.

3.) Keep it short. Usually, those in the hospital don’t feel well – something so obvious it can easily be forgotten. And most patients aren’t willing to tell friends or extended family that the three-hour visit is tiring them out. If they’ve had testing or a procedure done that day, they’ll likely be particularly drained, and some medications will leave them woozy or nauseous or confused. So keep it short, but leave a token – kids particularly enjoy presenting flowers or a balloon or even a card. And when you keep the visit short, you’re able to curtail it before the small fry gets bored or distracted.

One of the side effects of the amazing specialized hospital care we have in modern life is individualization – most North American hospitals don’t have “wards” anymore, communal rooms. And with this individualization comes certain barriers.

But the Body of Christ is called to be community – with. I believe physical presence matters; it is important. We must physically be with those in hospitals, in nursing homes, in Hospice care. If someone is sick or dying we act as if we must stay away. Instead, let’s act like we can’t stay away.

And let’s teach our kids to feel comfortable in medical environments. What if physicians in every hospital knew Christians by their willingness to quietly, cheerfully, sensitively share their time with the ill, or knew them as the people who were always leaving snacks or flowers for the break room?

Now that could revolutionize health care.

The Way Roads Shape Us by Elizabeth Glass Turner

I’ll bet there are roads you could drive blindfolded if you really needed to.

Maybe it’s the road from your house to the entrance of your subdivision, or the route you take to work, or the circuitous path you carve in your daily routine – stop, start, turn, pause, start again. The rhythm of acceleration, brake, the swing of the vehicle as you round a curve – commuters, too, know the rhythm of train stations and bus stops, so that travel becomes second nature.

We see the construction workers and construction equipment so big it nearly qualifies as a building on treads that squelch their way through mud and we think we build roads; oh, maybe not you and me. But our proxies are out in all weather spreading hot asphalt and leveling hills, that’s us – that’s Our Civilization Out There Building Roads. We think we build the roads.

I think the roads build us.

Recently I returned to central Kentucky, where I had lived for several years. I’d been away a while, and when I came back I was confronted with a new highway snaking through the rolling horse farms where an old one used to be; safer, undoubtedly, but out of sync with the old drive.

It was disorienting. I found glimpses of familiarity in unfamiliar proximity and proportion. Finally I discovered remnants of the old highway remained, running parallel to the new installation, and immediately pulled onto the original road. My body relaxed. Here was a landmark. There was a familiar farm. I knew the curves of the aged tumbling stone wall that marked old boundaries. The lift of the hills, the force of the turns – it was almost like muscle memory.

Hikers will tell you to leave your surroundings as untouched as possible, to preserve nature, to protect wildlife. But whatever trail you take, you won’t remain untouched. The path itself will have shaped you in some way.

Maybe that’s part of the reason that, over and over again, God reminded the Israelites to tear down the high places – those elevated perches of idolatry. Those paths needed to grow over and be forgotten. Those trails needed to be neglected; new roads needed to be established. Those muscles needed new memories. We hear stories of absent-minded drivers accidentally driving to their old place of work, or their old house – the same principle.

We think we shape the landscape, but the roads are shaping us.

How is it that the angle of a foot planted on a sidewalk can feel familiar? But it can. And the angle of the soul is similarly directed and shaped.

What roads are shaping you? The sentimental route to a loved ones’ house? The familiar trip to Sunday worship? The freeway journey to your job? The worn path trailing down to a beloved grave that you tend? The swaying course of a city bus to night class?

It’s best to be mindful of what roads are shaping you. Roads can be sly, shifting you this way and that when you’re lulled into complacency. Once, while driving, I mindlessly followed the person I was supposed to be following, only to look up and discover I’d been led past a Do Not Enter sign and was driving headfirst into oncoming traffic.

Examine your roads.

They shape you when you’re not looking.

And as pilgrims, we’re called to be mindful travelers.

Too Big To Fail by Elizabeth Glass Turner

“Too big to fail.”

A few years ago – and it doesn’t matter what your personal political opinion was on the government bailout of American automakers – this phrase rang repeatedly in American consciousness.

These businesses were too big to fail. We couldn’t afford to lose them, no matter the cost. They were essential to our identity and our economic well-being. Of course, the argument itself was faulty. Since when do the merits of saving something – or attempting to save something – rest solely on its size? Nonetheless, Americans were pressured to act with these four words. Too big to fail.

It’s an interesting concept – too big to fail. What about the church? Can a Christian denomination ever be too big to fail?

Certainly, the Roman Catholic Church had immense power and wealth stored up – in the year 1516. The year before a monk hammered a long notice into some wooden doors.

(That’d be Martin Luther.)

And I’ve wondered if a similar sentiment is present behind increasingly urgent calls for unity within the United Methodist Church – that the denomination is too big to fail. It’s certainly been part of the fabric of North American life for a couple of centuries (going back to its origins on this continent, and not just to its most recent incarnation since The Merger of ’68). Before the locomotive connected sea to shining sea, there were Methodists. Before Wilbur and Orville Wright, there were Methodists. Before the stock market crash of ’29, there were Methodists. Before Neil Armstrong left a boot print in lunar dust, there were Methodists. Before the World Wide Web, there were Methodists.

The Main Street Methodist church has an almost Rockwell quality to it, like Woolworth’s used to. And all of these industrious Methodists sent missionaries around the world, and now it’s a global denomination, too, and has been, for years. But even if Methodists are the apple pie on the American religious potluck table – are they too big to fail?

Have we fallen prey to the idea that others can’t do without us? After all, the world – not to mention the Kingdom of God – will continue, UMC or no UMC. It would be egocentric in the extreme to suggest otherwise.

But it is my belief that the Methodist movement has value in the family tree of the faith. And Methodism was a movement, before any Main Street churches ever became a fixture in thousands of communities in our country. After all, John Wesley never set out to create a denomination; he was a Church of England lad, if not quite a proper one.

In fact, Methodism almost had the feel of a religious order in its infancy – the kind that St. Benedict or St. Francis set up within the Roman Catholic Church. There was a strict rule of life (have you read those questions early Methodists had to ask each other regularly?!), and Methodism was a sect in the context of a larger body of believers (originally, the Church of England).

And if the roots of Methodism do have the feel of a religious order, how might that affect how we understand our identity today?

The Methodist movement, as it grew, was an expression of a calling that all were invited to, but few were likely to be interested in.

Wesley organized the movement to maintain a high expectation of lifestyle among members. Methodists served anybody, kept little, and went anywhere. They were teased – or criticized – or violently chased – for always being preoccupied with preaching, the Bible, and prayer (though perhaps less teased for their regular care for the poor and the imprisoned and ill).

Taken together, it’s almost a description of a Protestant monastic order that intersected with public life: a religious order for that beloved Protestant cry, the priesthood of all believers.

This Methodist movement didn’t start out too big to fail – only, perhaps, too eccentric to last. And certainly not mainline.

No historical or cultural expression of the Body of Christ is too big to fail – though it may be too big to survive. And that’s alright. If we perceive ourselves as too big to fail, then we’ve actually already failed – at least in our sense of prevenient grace, and in the awareness of our roots as an odd Protestant religious order.

All I know is, I’m more interested in taking part in the Methodist movement than I am in being a member of a certain denomination.

Which I think Wesley would’ve understood all too well.

Folk Religion & Ford Pick-Ups: How A Missiological Approach Can Transform Small-Town Ministry by Elizabeth Glass Turner

I’m a Yankee.

Specifically, I was born in central Michigan, where the air is scented with pine needles and damp sand.

I live in northeastern Texas – a region known for its own Piney Woods – but a world away from the cornfields of the Midwest, where I grew up.

It may seem like a small question, but how does someone from the Big Ten have a fruitful ministry in Texas when, just a few years ago, she neither knew nor cared about the famed University of Texas vs. Texas A & M rivalry?

I remember asking seminary friends who hailed from Texas (and a proud, boisterous lot they were) where, in the Lone Star state, they were from. They would tell me (proudly and boisterously) and all I could return was a blank, uncomprehending smile. One friend told me that she had gone to Texas A & M. This was accompanied by an air of deep significance, like a secret handshake or a password.

If she had said University of Michigan or Michigan State, I would have comprehended; Purdue or IU, I would have known intuitively that she was stamping her identity, proclaiming her camp.

After living in Texas for several years, I sent her a message on Facebook: I get it now.

Cultural elitists from coastal metropolises probably see all small towns in the flyover zone as one in the same.

They, in fact, are not: a reality borne in on me in my first year of pastoral ministry – and this “profound” reflection came from pastor’s kid – and not only a pastor’s kid, but a pastor’s niece, and a pastor’s granddaughter, and a pastor’s daughter-in-law. I grew up swimming in pastors. The windows I looked out of as a child were parsonage windows. How could I be surprised that local context mattered?

Luckily, the Texan-ness of Texas seemed foreign to me, and that was beneficial, even if it yielded some culture shock – because I automatically began to respond, not so much as a local pastor, but as a missionary. (Please don’t be offended, Texans – I invite any Texan who moves to Michigan to view those inscrutable northerners in precisely the same way.)

Specifically, of all my ministry classes in college and seminary, I drew on “Primal and Folk Religions” and “Contextual Theology” as resources. Not because I have witch doctors feeding baby chickens poison in order to divine whether or not a woman is telling the truth, but rather, because every culture has symbols that carry meaning – explicit and implicit – and language, traditions and acts carry layers of meaning that sometimes take decades for anthropologists to tease out and discern.

I couldn’t afford decades.

My little frontier church was lurching towards disaster when I arrived. For years part of a two-point charge, congregants seemed accustomed to a certain level of benign neglect. Immediately before I arrived, the charge was split; but so, too, was the level of employment: the church would have its own pastor, but the pastor would be part-time.

So I had a church in decline with wistful memories of full pews,  a spate of deaths leaving raw grief, and an identity crisis – in the midst of a regional context that centered on agricultural and environmental disaster in the form of an epically damaging drought that affected the economy at state, regional and local levels.

Here are a few missiological principles that helped to breed renewal, optimism and fruitfulness.

1) Respect the local culture for what it is.

It doesn’t have to reflect your personal tastes: I’ll never carry a camouflage purse emblazoned with a rhinestone cross, okay? But people here like what they like, just like Jersey Shore likes its tans and the Pacific Northwest likes its ethically sourced, organic free-range chicken.

If you disdain the local culture in which you find yourself, it will come through. I’m proud of where I come from; I grin gleefully if my Detroit Tigers beat the Texas Rangers; that’s who I am. But I respect the people here, which means that I respect this culture of rodeos and firearms, of trapping feral hogs and driving forty miles to get to the nearest Target.

I don’t have to like the blistering heat or the “water bugs” (code for giant roaches); but if I am to have a fruitful ministry, I must genuinely like the people.

Understanding a bit of area history helps uncover how a local culture has developed, too. I was amazed at how many residents regularly carry concealed weapons, for instance.

But consider this: the oldest houses in some East Coast towns I’ve visited have plaques bearing the year they were built – and many of those plaques start with the digits 16…imagine a house standing in the United States built in the 1600’s. Our little town here wasn’t founded until the very late 1800’s; Texas wasn’t a state until 1845. (Before that, it had won its independence from Mexico, meaning that when it joined the U.S., it was its own free republic.) And ranches are huge, with “the law” centralized in scattered towns that are few and far between. In short: if you’re a middle-aged resident whose family is from this area, it’s likely you had a grandparent or great-grandparent who was responsible, a la the Wild West, for protecting their family in a very real and vivid way.

What does that mean for a part-time pastor of a flagging mainline denomination rural church? It means that many of my members don’t live “in town” but drive in to church from outlying areas without thinking twice about the mileage. It means that there is a strong streak of independence and mistrust of centralized authority. It means that there is a hybrid blend of self-sufficiency and conscientiousness of the importance of looking out for one’s neighbor. And it means that every week, in the weekly mailer, there’s an ad for “licensed to carry concealed” classes.

Understand how the local culture developed. Respect it for what it is. Only then can you empower your local congregation to discover how the Gospel of Jesus Christ can flourish in the local soil, and what unique growth can occur.

2) Actively observe and listen for the first year, at least.

You are watching local customs, learning local words, discovering patterns. This could take twenty years, not just one: but one year’s worth of good watching and listening can leverage a small window of opportunity.

I learned that the local high school has its homecoming every four years rather than every year, and that girls are given mums to wear. I had to explicitly ask if they were chrysanthemums before learning what a “mum” is (a large badge of ribbons, for lack of a better description). With several teachers and school board members in church on Sunday mornings, it was good to know.

I learned that several significant town figures and, more pertinently, church members, had very recently died, and that the wounds of these losses were raw and gaping within my congregation; it needed healing, then, before turning too forcefully outward in its vision.

I learned that in the surrounding area, there was still a culture that reflected the reality that many residents were only second or third generation immigrants, many from eastern Europe, with the delicious result that every donut shop (and there are a staggering number of donut shops) sells little pigs in a blanket called “kolaches.”

All of these examples aren’t just anecdotal sketches: they’re examples of collecting information, of sifting what is important and what isn’t, of analyzing behavior, mood and attitudes in an attempt to establish a sense of local cultural norms.

Because in ministry, leaders are called to discern cultural norms and to seek change through the transforming power of the Holy Spirit, or to seek opportunity for a dovetailing connection between culture and faith, or to seek adoption of those norms as a vehicle of communicating faith.

And while the church universal bickers about how to respond to cultural currents on a macro level, I believe that a vibrant local church will, on a micro level, discern its place in local culture consciously or unconsciously.

This shows up in such mundane matters as discussing the possibility of holding a drawing for a firearm as part of a fundraiser (remember our regional history) or hosting a senior luncheon for every single graduating student of the local high school (most community events revolve around the local school system). But it also show up in slightly more potent situations – such as when a Caucasian church family adopts an African American daughter; and while on the national scale this may not register as culturally significant, on the local level, it distinctly challenges cultural norms – unfortunately, a great deal of latent racism.

Absorbing local patterns can help prevent blunders, too: reflecting on an annual event that had seen waning success with every passing year, I was tempted to do away with it altogether and plan an alternate event – until I realized that as much as the fundraising aspect was discussed, the event functioned much more potently as a gathering of community and, even more, as a way of honoring the people who had recently died, who had figured so largely in its organization every year. But I had to tease out what was explicitly communicated about the event from what was implicit and behind-the-scenes. Recognizing the emotional and even spiritual import of this, a serious mistake was avoided: the event stayed as it was. (Cultural anthropologists and religious phenomenologists spend years attempting to glean from “the locals” the levels of significance of certain rites. Surely we pastors can spend a fraction of the same effort; after all, we share the Word Made Flesh.)

3) Discern the particular strengths of your individual members and congregation as a whole.

In my experience, churches have a difficult time seeing themselves accurately: either they think they have everything in the world to offer, or they question whether they have anything of value to offer. And a fruitful ministry in a small church requires leadership that gently holds up an honest mirror.

When I arrived, it was like the article that recounted an experiment in which women were asked to describe themselves to an artist who couldn’t see them, and then were also drawn simply by an artist’s observations. The two pictures represented a stark contrast: in almost every case, the sketches created only by a woman’s description of herself showed distorted features that were unattractive compared to the image drawn simply by an artist looking at the subject. What a telling study.

And in this age of Starbucksation, small local churches often feel they’re unable to offer anything of worth compared to large, shiny metropolitan churches pastored by impeccable grins; which is tragic, because both churches offer Jesus Christ; and that is the only thing of lasting worth that either church has, no matter what the insurers say.

So because you respect the local culture for what it is, and because you’ve listened and observed local values and traditions and norms, you’re now able to call forth the unique gifts of this specific body of believers in this particular local context; and to affirm that unique offering as valuable.

One of the strengths of my little church was the number of dedicated (read: burned out) volunteers, many of whom were strong women of immense leadership abilities. But as I heard one male athlete say once, “guys, it’s not just about the biceps and abs: if the rest of you is unfit you’ll just look ridiculous.” I felt it would be valuable to draw out some of the quiet abilities and gifts of our men. I approached a father of three that I perceived to have innate leadership and asked if he was interested in starting a men’s group of any kind – Bible study, prayer, study group, projects, anything. He led a cluster of men who began meeting weekly to work on property improvements; they developed camaraderie, tore out an old sidewalk, put in a new one, added handicapped accessibility, offered friendship to a hurting widower, enclosed a cluttered carport as a multi-purpose storage space, tore out overgrown landscaping and established new plantings, took out old tree limbs, repaired the sanctuary ceiling…

These “outward and visible signs of an inner invisible grace” began to cheer discouraged hearts; the community driving by saw signs of life and liveliness. I had a vision: spreading out volunteer responsibility, disbursing power to multiple stakeholders, engaging men beyond Sunday morning worship: and because I entrusted the nuts and bolts of the vision to the local church members themselves (remember the independence, self-sufficiency and mistrust of centralized authority?), they implemented their version of preparing to invite Kingdom opportunities into their midst.

And in several instances, I encouraged and invited “grass roots” implementation of a broader vision that was constantly threaded through Sunday morning sermons: how is God calling us to be a light in our particular community?

As I saw it, it was my job to be out front, proclaiming the Gospel hope of Jesus Christ, steering vision, but not imposing my idea of what the particular cultural incarnation of that Gospel vision must be.

In that way, when the pastor leaves a local setting, the cultural embodiment of that Gospel vision has the opportunity to live on because it is rooted in local soil. We have enough short-lived programs that survive with an individual pastor’s tenure but fade as soon as that individual is gone. And why do they fade? Because they’re artificially imposed as a blanket response by the pastor everywhere the pastor goes – and if it works one place, the pastor reasons, it will work another. And if it doesn’t, the pastor blames the congregation.

Meanwhile, in small town Texas, the little church that had stood so battered and worn now stands refurbished and proud. Discouraged tones have been replaced with optimism, confidence and vision. The number of Sunday School classes offered grew by 300%. Church members began initiating and carrying out stellar events that fostered community, spread the Word and offered healing and hope. Record numbers of visitors began to show up on attendance sheets. Despite heavy losses occurring due to deaths of elderly members, church membership held steady due to the number of new members being added. A crop of new babies led to the need to get the nursery in order.

Not every small rural church will embrace a vision and hope for the future.

But perhaps it’s time to see how many would be willing, if only we gave them our best.

Which is what they – and the Gospel of Jesus Christ – deserve.

How We Die by Elizabeth Glass Turner

I was thirty-two years old when a woman took my advice on how to die.

Sitting in her low living room banked with windows that overlooked butterfly-laden bushes, I watched her shallow breaths. She had lost strength and energy: her frame seemed diminished, as if her soul were clinging to her body by mere tendrils.

While disease sapped her vitality, her mind was still quietly at work.

She did not want to disappoint the children.

But the last-chance sign was a few miles behind her. She had tried the best last-ditch effort that modern medicine could offer. It would work for some people. It would not work for her.

She did not want to disappoint the children.

My eyes took in her papery skin, her closed eyes, her quiet words – breaths barely bounded by consonants. Each inhale seemed as negligible as the air movement around the butterflies in the yard. They might outlive her.

I breathed deeply.

“If you want to keep fighting, we are all with you. You know how loved you are. But if you are tired, no one can blame you for that. You have fought the good fight, you have finished the race, you have kept the faith. Give yourself permission to let go. Sit down and tell your kids that they need to give you permission to go, that they need to let you go. And if you feel it’s time to call Hospice, that’s alright. They’re a wonderful organization, they will take care of you, and they will care for your family.”

Dishes and pans clinked in the kitchen, familiar sounds of home coming from a much older woman who was watching her daughter slowly fade. I glanced over the form in front of me. I couldn’t tell whether she was still awake – just exhausted – or whether she had drifted off to sleep. Not long after, I took my leave. The encounter weighed on me over the weekend.

And then I received a shock: after my visit, the rapidly fading grandma who seemed almost transparent with approaching death had heeded my counsel. She had called her grown, grieving children around her. And then she had called Hospice. Within two weeks, she died.

I still miss her. For all her seeming diminishment, her absence is palpable.

But I also mourn the absence of ministries related to holy dying. I think, in our culture, their absence is palpable (as so many roadside memorials testify).

How you die matters: not the mode of dying – be it aneurysm or asteroid, tachycardia or exploding toilet. Even the ethics of death – assisted death by physican or other forms of suicide – trump the conversation on expiration.

No, how you die matters. Do you die at peace with your God, at peace with others, at peace with yourself? Do you die with a weathered faith that murmurs, ‘til the end, “I know that my Redeemer lives…”? Do you die with the taste of communion bread in your mouth? Do you die hearing the voices of your sisters and brothers in the faith read Psalms, read prayers, sing words of comfort, hope and truth? Do you die, confident of the goodness of Life? Do you die, knowing that soon, your tomb will be full, but that The Tomb That Matters Is Empty? Do you die with curiosity about what it feels like to caper with Triune Eternity?

Most humans will never choose the mode of death – big rig, pneumonia, hurricane, malaria. A few humans will choose heroic action as their mode of death. But all of us, fragile like seasonal butterflies on the breeze, can choose how we die. Even those of us with Alzheimer’s or other forms of dementia can choose how to slip into the deepening twilight; and who knows what subterranean choices are made in the depths of human consciousness, even when the surface is blank and staring.

Yes, how you die matters. Funerals are a surface ministry to grieving family and community members. Important, yes; but what if we move from a funeral ministry to a ministry of holy deathbeds?

A holy deathbed is a community event; a sacramental event; an evangelistic event. It is pure in its unity of purpose: to proclaim the Risen Christ.

Each breath that slows still further etches “Christ has died…” in the firmament of time and space. Each fluttering pulse that weakens yet more beats “Christ is risen…” to the rhythm of the spheres. Each flickering eyelid that closes to this world counsels “Christ will come again…” to the rising and setting sun.

How do you choose to die?

A Reasonable Doubt by Elizabeth Glass Turner

On a recent hot summer day, I pulled down the flap of my mailbox and discovered an official-looking summons. For the first time in my life, I had Jury Duty – those dreaded words that bring pained expressions to millions of Americans every year.

Being a woman of a thousand and one opinions, however, I immediately waved the paper under my husband’s nose. (My armchair interest in crime – most notably evident in the time I spend in armchairs reading old Agatha Christie stories – came bubbling indecently to the surface.) The case, however, ended up being a relatively boring one (because somehow I did get on the jury). Before the proceedings began, the defense lawyer and the prosecutor each gave their pitches on the nature of reasonable doubt.

Employing two heavily loaded words – reason, and doubt – the two men attempted to lay their early groundwork. One needed to convince us beyond a reasonable doubt. One needed only to create a reasonable doubt. And in the end, assuming innocence as we were sworn to do, the six of us came to the consensus that, like it or not, reasonable doubt was present.

And what, I wondered as I drove home, does reasonable doubt look like to a person of faith?

Not reasonable doubt as it exists in the criminal justice system, but reasonable doubt as it exists in its dance with faith.

Many believers position doubt as one pole and faith as the other, opposites that most people slide back and forth between on a spectrum. But as a citizen, I had just sat with a “juror” tag on my shirt well aware that we were deliberating, not between doubt and faith, but between doubt and certainty – a reasonable doubt, a reasonable certainty – which would the evidence – and the portrayal of the evidence – create?

It’s fascinating to note that if you read the words of the author of Hebrews from the NRSV, chapter 11, verse one renders, “now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen” – faith is assurance and conviction of the longed-for invisible. But if you flip the pages of a worn King James Bible (or flick the screen of your iPad), you will read, “now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen” – faith is substance and evidence.

And so we come to the mystery of our faith – Christ has died, Christ is risen, Christ will come again…

I love reasoning about my faith. Intellectual curiosity and faith, far from being antagonistic towards each other, fuel each other.

But part of the mystery of our faith is that faith is evidence; not faith in evidence, or certainty about evidence, but faith, the evidence of things not seen – which conjures Flannery O’Connor’s words in the novel Wise Blood, “faith is what someone knows to be true, whether they believe it or not.”

Because, as anyone who has slogged through the dark night of the soul eventually learns, faith is never blind; faith, instead, knows all too well. And until your faith has a head that is bloodied but unbowed, you will look for evidence that will strengthen your faith. But of course the logic of faith is that your gritted teeth, your plummeting down into the void until you fall through the other side – these are the evidence.

This makes sense only in the mystery of the dead Christ, the risen Christ, and the coming Christ – which means that it makes all the sense in the world…